Stumbling Home: Life Before and After That Last Drink
Carol Weis bares herself in her debut memoir, in which she unveils her two lives, before and after
A Message From the Author
If you or someone you love may be drinking more than usual to relieve the stress and fear the news cycle produces or to push down painful feelings and issues from the past, perhaps my story will help.
— Carol
Prologue
What happens to a child who’s abandoned
    intentionally or not
      when she grows up?
A girl whose early years are rife
with anger and fear
who confuses trouble with fun
and who’s terrified of being left again?
She ends up drinking and drugging
way more than she should
seeking to obliterate her past
sleeping with every Tim, Rich, and Henry
with her claws ever extended
eventually marrying a guy she snags
who consumes as much as she does
fathers her child
and fulfilling her fears
leaves her when she gets sober
unable to do so himself.
This woman-child stumbles and falls
over and over again
            until finally
       she picks herself up
and stumbles home.
Copyright © 2021 Carol Weis
Cover by Carol Weis with Heliotrope Books
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