Stumbling Home: Life Before and After That Last Drink

Carol Weis bares herself in her debut memoir, in which she unveils her two lives, before and after

December 29, 2021
Cover of the book, Stumbling Home

A Message From the Author

If you or someone you love may be drinking more than usual to relieve the stress and fear the news cycle produces or to push down painful feelings and issues from the past, perhaps my story will help.
— Carol

Prologue

What happens to a child who’s abandoned
       intentionally or not
            when she grows up?

A girl whose early years are rife
with anger and fear
who confuses trouble with fun
and who’s terrified of being left again?

She ends up drinking and drugging
way more than she should
seeking to obliterate her past
sleeping with every Tim, Rich, and Henry
with her claws ever extended
eventually marrying a guy she snags
who consumes as much as she does
fathers her child
and fulfilling her fears
leaves her when she gets sober
unable to do so himself.

This woman-child stumbles and falls
over and over again
                       until finally
             she picks herself up
and stumbles home.

Copyright © 2021 Carol Weis
Cover by Carol Weis with Heliotrope Books

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